"If i can't be the one to furfill your dreams I want someone there who can."

Its not that you cant, its that you chose not to. You had the opportunity, and you said no. You said you found someone better. Even after i begged and pleaded with you.

I dont know what you mean by being linked. Other than being one of my best friends and what that entails, i dont feel any sort of 'connection' with you. I miss you alot, and think about you all the time - but i dont understand the connection thing. Ill let you see whatever you want to see about me. Im not very good at just volunteering information, so you have to ask. But i will tell you anything you want to know - so dont be shy asking me quetsions. Im probably wondering the same thing about you.

I dont think its selfish of you, to want some contact with an old friend. How is that in any way selfish? I can give you this, thats easy. Face to face contact is going to be harder, but im working on it. No matter how hard i work at it, there is only so much i can do - and there is still quite a bit of time before it can happen so i try not to think about it too much.

What you are saying makes sense, but im not sure what i can do about it. Im what.. four to five thousand miles away? The very next time we can see each other face to face is atleast 2 years away. And will it really be a good thing if we do? You are with someone you love, i am with someone i love.. is it really a good idea to dig up those feelings?